zindagi ke phatte...

life sometimes seems to be really funny...

one day...you realise that life has so much to offer...everything seems to be going on the right track...if not, then even you tend to believe that things will fall in place...you meet nice people...everybody love and care about you...you simply feel GREAT...this drives you to move ahead...face whatever comes your way...and you think this is the beauty of life...

and then next day, you realise that you are living in ignorance...nothing is happening the way you would like it to be...your plans are failing...people just hate and ignore you...you find yourself alone...you think this is not the way to live life...you tend to be impatient...people doesnt give you enough freedom...stranded in no man's land...then you question yourself 'is this life?'

all this makes life interesting and engrossing...

there are no set rules to handle either of the days...but i have realised vision (of life) and patience can make things certainly better and workable...

i am still looking to find better ways to handle it...any suggestions are invited? :):)

Alone.........

For quite sometime, i have been thinking writing something on my thoughts, life. And my last 2-3 blog entries are on the same lines. Earlier i used to write on more social and political issues which now i find boring and mundane.

Then i figured, even my character and life is quite interesting and strange, and a lot could be written which could be worth readiing. Moreover, it makes you think and evaluate yourself.

Everytime, i try to evaluate myself, i find myself alone. This is quite strange for a person like me. And i am not able to accept this feeling, the more i try to shun it away the more it gets on me.

Seriously, i need a break and i wanna go out !!! any takers :)

Sinking Ship........continued

Last nite, our own friend shishir gupta was at our place. We (Kavi, Tp, Hathi and I) were having discussion on the 'Sinking Ship'.

Sinking ship is such an interesting story, and it is a part of everybody life. Everytime the captain and team is different. Plot is different. Rules are decided by captain. And team play around them. But the captain has to earn respect and command from its team members to make sail smooth and enduring.

There is time when sailor loses directions, when there is confusion, when people think of saving their lives. This is the time when captain plays like a hero, fights against all odds, sails through. His confidence is team's confidence.

whosoever is reading, CAPTAIN has to stay and he should stay.......

Losing control..........

For sometime now, i am troubled by something which is my own creation. I simply don't understand why i behave unreasonably when my surroundings are not in my control? why why why? I tend to stay quiet, keep my head cool, heart beat goes up and down, feel like hitting hard on wall. But i dont know its helps or not as i try hard to keep everything with me. Inflow is so much and no outflow. That feeling so frustating at times, that it almost kills me.

There is also a good part to it. It just dies down so quickly, anyways it has to otherwise i can't sustain the heat for that long.

I still dont know how to channelize this heat, and i dont want to channelize it. Just wanna get over it. Chuck it. .... it

I simply hate this feeling. Sort of relieved.

One Lifetime is just too less

Few days back, i was out with my office team for a lunch at Flavors. While we were discussing our experiences on the project as a team, one of my colleague questioned my TL, what do you wanna do in your life if you have no constraints like money etc. Since then, i am looking for an answer. Honestly, i am still figuring out a consistent answer. Initially, i thought its going to be an easy one.

After pondering on this since then, i feel my choice cant be single for this lifetime. I would love to travel around this world, would like to meet people of different cultures and communities. But can i do this for my remaining life? Certainly not, if given a choice i would like to be following in single lifetime:

1. A directionless traveller
2. An actor
3. A politician
4. A social worker
5. A musician
6. A singer
7. Into advertising
8. A writer
9. A reporter

aur pata nahin kya kya...there is no end to it. And an ironical part, my current profession is not in the list.

How one can possibly be in one profession in his/her whole life? I know i might stupid. You must be thinking, most people spend their life in single profession without liking or i would say without knowing what they actually like. Even i might do the same.

Try to ask this question to yourself, i am sure it wont be easy to find an answer.

Still life is beautiful. I know i am being unrealistic and a dreamer. Kya karun yaar...bhawnao ko samjho...

Another dimension - QUOTA for OBC's in IIT's and IIM's

Lot has been said on Mandal II. There is hue and cry over proposal of quota for OBC's in IITs and IIMs. Everyone has given his/her viewpoints.

Here I wont like to discuss, what is right or wrong, but possible cultural and social impact of this decision. Till now, no one has talked about the possible relationship among students in these pre-eminent institutes, their prospects after education and challenges they going to face in present education system if this proposal is implemented in its present form.

From my experience I could say that most of the quota category students are not open about their background. They always try to hide it from other students because most of the general category students never find reservation justified. So if this proposal is implemented, it means every second student in these institutes will belong to any of these reservation categories. I cant even think of the reaction of students who are selected on the basis of merit, if they find every second student hasn't put the same amount of hard work as they have put. But I am pretty sure; this reaction is not going to be normal and acceptable.

Even today, general category students don’t accept reservation. And in IIT's, they move and interact in different groups. I am afraid that 50:50 divide might lead to cultural divide between these two groups.

Campus placements: critical period in every student’s life. More than 90% of the organizations that recruit graduates from these institutes belong to private sector. So lets suppose at the time of final selection, if a choice comes down to 'general' student and 'quota' student, with other factors being same, there is clear likelihood that the recruiting company will choose the 'general' student. Reason is simple: There is a huge difference in the intellectual level of both students at the time of entrance.

Implementing similar level of reservation in private sector jobs is still a distant dream. Either these companies will stop coming to IIT or they will recruit off campus.

Another valid observation is whether these institutes are capable of handling this decision. How they going to make sure that the student from OBC's perform as per standards. Because just ensuring an admission wont help them in longer term.

Today, every aspirant who fights hard to secure a seat wont let it go that easily.

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